week 9

i had an epiphany earlier today. when i'm pregnant i don't lose one hair off of my head. i have really thick hair, and usually i shed like a dog, but not when i'm pregnant. a few weeks after the baby is born i lose all the hair i saved up while pregnant. (sorry if this is gross, but i have to explain my epiphany!!) it hadn't happened yet. alexis is 9 1/2 weeks old and i kinda just figured i wasn't going to lose so much hair this time. well, today in the shower it happened. the reason this is a big deal is because i have been so hard on myself about losing weight etc. when my hair started falling out i realized i just barely had a baby. i want results NOW. i don't want it to take a long time. this is not a good way to think because it makes it very easy to get discouraged. so, i took a deep breath, and i'm going to give myself a little slack. today we're going to get me a really good ankle brace, and some new running shoes. so monday i'll be all ready to go. anyway, my weight stayed the same this week. i'm trying to figure out how many calories to eat to lose weight, but keep producing enough breastmilk. it's a very tricky thing!



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